OMG HOW GD DOES TT LOOK!
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my sister n my room!!
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e living room!
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here's e apartment we stayed in in tasmania!
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waterfalll
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gd photooo!!
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fabulous view!
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a mini river ting haha
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my dad in btw 2 trees!
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next up! a reserve!
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still at ETC (elizabeth town centre)
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well we did try to cover all! ahah.. even 8 days wasnt enuf! :(
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an echidna!! (: its super cute! tryin to dig a hole inta ground ahha
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hot choco w marshmellows!!! yummy!
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fabulous pies n hot choco at ETC
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finally! a family photo! ahha
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getting into e car to drive outta e ship!
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great scenary onboard!
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e seats are uncomfy!! i was sooooo tempted to slp onta floor.. my dad actually did slp onta floor aft awhile ahha
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on board e spirit of tasmania to obviously tasmania
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this was absolutely yummyyyylicious!
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inta reptile shop
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cool huh!
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variety qty and quality.. wat more can u ask for (: we bought tons!
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i wasnt kidding abt e qty of fruits there
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queen vic mkt (: super cheap n gd fruits n all sorts of stuff here!
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pple who acted on stage n entertained us with their songs dances jokes n craps! (: loved it!
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outside draculas! (:
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e really really really cool show we went to (:
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nice place (:
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e stupid bird tt followed us everywhere!!
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china town.. qt small naiz
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some punk rock show gg on (:
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standing inta tram to go town
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trammm!!!
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standing inta tram ahha
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place to slot ya tic in.. n my behind ahha
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thts a possum we spotted while strolling ard e park at night
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how yummy is tht larhhh!!!
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my sis and i!! dun u love her jackets! ahha
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heres e pizza n lasagna (: yummy!
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my sis looking oh so happy with her lab stuff.. ahha she's a marine biologist doin honours tis yr
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looking pretty happy with the pizza...
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3 of em (:
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where my sis stays ahha
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my sis arrived to pick us up in her car! (:
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mommy n daddy looking oh so happy!! (:
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we finally reached aft an uncomfy ride inta plane (:
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sneaky!! my sisters bunny in melb (:
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i love my green roxy capppp!!!
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OMG OMG OMG!!! im finally setting off to melb tmr!! or rather tdy since its already 2am (: (: (: canttt wait!!! -grinz- i can finally meet my sister.. go snorkeling... scuba diving.. tanning.. eat all e gd food.. shoppp.. and at tasmania i can enjoy the scenery.. more scuba diving and snorkeling.. mountain climbing n rock climbing.. search for waterfalls.. oohhhhhhhhhhh! love it! damn exciting!! gna tk tons n tons of photos n videos!! oh myyyyy!! n hopefully lose weight of cz.. i gain so much since i entered hall. yucks! hahhaa.. oh n chow n i finally coloured our hair.. hers has streaks of purple.. n mine is copper with golden brown streaks (: look ang mo now! ahha yes la! perfect for my trip to aus! (: (: oh yes! my sis is gna teach me how to bodyboard tooooooooooo! oh my! damn exciting! n being the marine biologist she is im sure she'll happily tell me all abt the creatures inta sea n even the rocks n algae n wat not. haha well... i wldnt mind one bit so long as i can see herrrrrrrrr! ahha (: while im gone im def gna miss all my deariess all sn.. cj and th mates! (: well maybe i can catch ya all online once in awhile while im there? ahhaa. ill be back on 31st dec!! not tt far awayyyy.. hahaa. kinda. (: had prata with kang just now!! the casuarina one!! the choco prata n thosei were superb! haha so was e service!! unlike the one near thomson plaza where if u wave ya hand right in fronta em n call em in their face eyl still walk by u n treat u as tho ure transparent!!! tsk. well at the casuarina prata hse.. ey walked us to table.. patiently took our order.. served the prata super quickly.. were super frenly n funny (i swear kang n em were actin like best frens la) .. n were super alert if we wanted to order more.. wat can i say. their svc was first class!!! (: ahha anw hada great time with kang .. n w yy del chow n ct a few days ago (: as well as with char n ser at united sq (: wonderfullll!! i was especially estatic when jean came backkk!! even tho its only for a day n she slept most of it away!! tt pig! ahhaa. i wld def be the happiest ata end of jan (: i guess only u wld knw why -grins- well.. gta slp n wake up to a beautiful morn tmrrrrr!! CANT WAIT LARHHH!! (:

alrighttt man..!! I ABSOLUTELY LOVE MAMBO!!!! even tho its soooooo tiring.. perhaps cz everytime chow n i go we dance too vigorously. ahhaa jacinth is a seriously vigorous dancer too.. n as for linda.. haha when she is a bit high lets just say theres no stopping her (: LOVE ALL MY DARLINGS!!! hahah u guys all made my night man! hahaa. i miss evelyn so much!! so glad she was there (: ser too! altho i only saw her ata end hahaa. anw it was a really fun night out.. a whole big grp of us.. me chow jacinth alison whelan kat evelyn+bf tse yong jeremy.. n sometimes ER shuo yanfang.. n stace n linda my two lovely darlings joined us ata last hr (: loved every min of it! even the walking n laughin inta rain part n the dying onta floor (me jacinth and chow) outside zouk tryin to catch our breaths and recover for a 2nd round! like i said.. i tink we're a bit too vigorous haha. tts why we sweat n die so easily.. jacinth chow n i were like super glued tgt tt night (: ahahha. we shd def hang out tgt more often..!! lovely larh! we were like singing kbox to the songs with vigorous dance movements.. fr sultry. flirtious.. jazzy salsa-y RnB right down to retarded movements (some stolen fr whelan) n def a hell lota jumping n screaming n shaking of heads hair n asses! hahahah (: what bliss. the funny ting is we were nowhere near drunk altho we were kinda dancing like we were. ahahha. well there was definitly a lot of kissing going ard (looks pointedly at a certain someone) ahhaha. lets just say none of us got left unkissed. ahahha. i got my boobs violated too. uh-uh! hopefully only chow saw. ahhaa. hmm. lets not go into details shall we. hahah. ahha really thkful to whelan n tse yong who were clucking ard like mother hens protecting their lil chicks fr all the perverts ard us! (: ahhaha. met quite a few other pple there too.. becks chels ser vann cheryl jay yvonne nicole sheena lora spiderman (bwahahhas). missed wyn tho.. din manage to c her. ah well. b4 mambo.. whole body aching (esp left calf) like shit! aft mambo .. whole body aching even more! i swear we all lost at least 1kg! full body work out larh! oh my. nearly died. morn (or shd i say evening) aft din feel too gd at all either! ahhaa. jacinth n chow shd knw best since i was whining n whining away with every pitiful step -grins- haha squash training aft def did not help either. ahha. tink im really really gna understand wats living hell tmr man :( oh well. i got myself into tis mess for signing up for 4/5 ihgs. :/ well cant waita c tong tong tmr (: finallyyyy!! mahjong n bridge next wk alright jacinth n chow? sunday dinner with char cheri n ser. sat day cut n dye hair w chow den night w ct cc del chow n yy ata bbq at my hse. more trainings.. den its holidayyyyyy timee! ill be at melbourne/tasmania fr 13-31 dec (: a bit too long but ohhh boy! cant wait!!! (: haha once again. I LOVE ALL MY VIGOROUS BIMBOTIKK DARLINGS (: (: (:



/oh yeah im definitely having a slight water phobia now. ahah ask jacinth n cheong hwa and eyl happily tell u why :/ hhahahaa I LOVE MAHJONG!! jacinth..!! im def gna visit ya room more often with the wonderful but rather small table with the lovely tiles on it (: hee. luvya dearrrr! dun forget the wonderful move we learnt fr da harry potter movie! ahha our lovely siggghhhhh / haiiiiiiii hand n feet movement tht is oh so dainty n refined!! (:

i know im slow. but i just finished reading the half blood prince tht chow lent me n oh boyyyy did it have the saddest ending! i was actually tearing! oh my. i never thought he wld die -frowns- anw. i was tinkg back to the time when chow n i were freezing our asses off ata wteva sailing republic god knws wat club of hers inta wee hrs of the morn.. ahahhah. im glad she stayed behind n forced me to walk with her. we both agreed tht sucha place was breathtaking in its simplicity and remarkably soothing despite the strong currents tht rocked this wooden plank wteva ting we were trying to balance on. it was good just lying there.. the cool wind (a bit tooo cold tho we were shivering) blowing the clouds away at such an alarming rate. the sea water lapping .. okay nowhere near our feet but it was close enuf (: and us just lying there.. dehydrating (we forgot to bring water) .. cut off fr the busy glaring lights n all the hustles n bustles.. it was wonderful to know that ure not cut away fr reality (i mean we can still see e lights right) but more like we are taking a step back and enjoying the cool night breeze and the quiet tht we hfnt experienced in a long time. altho we went there mainly cz i was feeling like.. well okay.. shit. it occured to me tht chow n i hfnt relaxed n enjoyed each others company in sucha quiet and amazingly tranquil place or environment b4. i mean we usually bimbo each other to death or dance n shout ard like uncouth n mildly insane ladies and spend most of our time outwitting gossiping singing and most definitely laughing at/to each other. we talked abt all we felt and thought abt.. all the people that we miss/love/bother us.. we talked abt how times haf changed.. what was and what is.. we shuddered at the thought of what lies ahead. we did really stupid tings of cz.. i mean its only natural for us to do tht! haha seriously chow.. ill nv forget the stupid up down actions (which look really.. wrong n um.. SEX-y) ahaha. and the tune tht was hummed along with it. ahhaa it was a fantastic workout nonetheless. now i understand how sex can be a totally great workout.. i mean not tht we were doin netg illicit tht night of course. we're both straight (sometimes v debatable depending on object) and also exceedingly innocent beyond words.. we were merely doin certain moves tht seemed a lil.. uncalled for. hahaha (: tink we spent a total of 3hrs there? i cant rmb. ahha one ting for sure. we both enjoyed our time there more than we wld haf been at zouk. shuo was advising me to let zouk be an outlet for my sadness but i knw it wld only provide me temporary relief.. and tht aft tt i wld feel ultimately much worse off than i felt before. (mainly due to my reasons being upset of cz which up to date still only chow knws) hai . in addition to my sadness i felt tremendous guilt tht aft so much badgering by chow n shuo i still adamently refused to go n tht inta chow din go too (tho i told her to go if she wants to) oh well. chow we def hafta tk another walk there soon! its amazing! and u hfta sail me soon! haha in ure bucket! or did u call it a bath tub? hahaa (: i learnt more abt sailing than i ever knew in my life! thks to chows introductions and explanations while we were walking ard tht place (: anw i tink one reason why chow n i haf sucha.. strange lovelife is tht our expectations are set too high. n we both agreed tht it is due to all the Nora R. and Judith Mc bks we read. (which i found out rarah reads too!) our perfect dream guy wld be someone who is cheeky.. who makes u laugh n sometimes cry.. who bullies u ard a lil n lets u bully him back.. one tht is gentle yet rough.. who argues with you n fights you if necessary..has to be witty.. very very witty and smart.. someone who will mk u teether on the edge of..hmm (: someone tall dark and handsome wita killer smile cldnt hurt either -winks- and definitely someone who is not an introvert.. not a big headed jack ass.. n is not passive or feeble minded. well the guy tht chow n i haf described above is obviously unattainable as we haf just described almost all the guys in JM or NR's books but oh well (: any guy close to perfect would be just fine (: (: (:


///chow : really wanna thk u for accompanying me tht night even tho i already did (: i cheered up a great deal n did not tink back to my probs again. i really really really enjoyed the walk so tk tis as a super big hint to jio me to walk there again k? ure the best bimbotikly alike fren ill ever have. lets cont messing up hall life and making other peoples lives miserable.. shall we? (: cheers to kbox tanning bridge food life our common frens and the men we threw away n the men we desire to have!!! (:

i dont get why i always attract the wrong kinda people. WHY WHY WHY!! chow our dreams of tai tai hood r gg down the drain seriously. hahaha. i tink you .. yes esp you wld understand my plight since ya are currently experiencing it too. whahaha. its ridiculous. hada nice time out w shuo and chow thurs night! we ate coffee club.. it was yummyliciousss!!, caught EMILY (i actually freaked out a lil when i woke up ltr tt evening due to tis one scene tt haunted me for a whole hr! but other than tt it was more.. intriguing enlightening and fascinating.. oh yeah i still wna watch a bimbo show!), went to changi airport just the 3 of us for the fun of it n talked n talked n played oh so stupid games at tis nice lil quiet place tt served qt disgusting hot choc. haha. i tink da variety of fruits will haunt me for e rest of my life! haah. anw shuo lost! cz he not only cheated by searching e net for more fruit names but i actually managed to (v painstackingly.. trust me i've nv racked my brains so hard b4) recall another superb fruit name! ... POMEGRANATE!! OH MY LARH. chow was absolutely dumbfounded n utterly impressed! hee. b4 tt i was soooo desperate tt i actually said PIKACHU. retarded i knw. haha anw e loser was spse to speed a trolley across the floor like a moronic idiot. haha but of cz he din do it. after much driving we settled for breakfast at the cheese prata shop at fs. well i guess er werent much options regarding to where to eat at like 4.50 am. we wanted yakun! but it wasnt open :( oh yeah! one ting i gta mention was tt shuo was wearing tis ah bengish (according to chows words) shirt with holes all over! hahaha. chow accused him of hole-ing his own shirt. -smirks- we tink he n linda tok will mk a superb pair! (: next time when i go out. im soooo gna bring two jackets! chow n i were freeeezing! esp inta movie theatre larh! freezing n scared to death. not exactly a gd combi. haha. aft tt night chow n i actually stayed up to watch tis breakdancing show till lik 10?omg. tt means in 2 days n nights i only slpt like.. 3hrs total. pueiii! i concussed when i got back to my rm. thru out e night.. chow n i were talking abt how amazing it is tt our friendship has transcended thru sucha long time n thru soo much crazyyy shit.. retarded moments.. joys .. tears.. and wat not. i mean we were frens since pri one!! and being inta same pri.. sec.. jc.. uni .. and now hall .. its sucha conincidence!! up till now we arent sure whether its a blessing or not! haha. i also realise we haf amazingly similar character traits!! (no thks to aprilyn n linda e bimbo) lets see. we're both st nickians (some characterise sn pple as bimbos).. we dumped all our ex's .. we both find humour an absolutely key ingredient in the pple we like and cannot tahan NUA-ness.. we're dominating.. in other words.. our husbands will prob get bullied . haha.. we are super ultra slackers!! (thus resulting in us finding comfort in each other near n during exam times) .. we haf similar tastes in fashion. similar views.. we haf our famous/infamous bimbo lingo thks to ms serene ang.. we both love to read certain novels.. by certain authors.. (only a few sn pple will knw esp delly belly!) similar taste in food.. oh yes WE ABSOLUTELY LOVE FOOD!! cannot resist it. way more than we love bridge mahjong tanning n kbox! ahhaa. we haf two sides of us. one loud boisterous crazy horny flirtatious bimbotik psychotic n qt horrific at times and another side to us when we are sad.. worried.. or simply feeling numb.. sianz or at peace. yes. we do actually tk certain tings seriously .. but well i guess many pple just see the mad side of us tt ey tink we're only capable of sheer madness. hmm. two more papers to go. better get back to my pathetic but nonetheless attempts to study! cant wait for kbox shopping n harry with chow aprilyn n jacinth dear on tuesss!!! HOORAY! (:



* tt bung we saw thurs night at coffeeclub express was seriously hot stufff!!! she smokes.. qt a turn off tho. but she even smokes with such style! ahah PUEI! tink chow n i cldnt keep our eyes off her larh! (not saying we're les laa.. eyecandy only) (: just felt tt i shd mention her! haha. just like how i mentioned our 2 oclock e other time ata hotel! oh boyyy was he sth man! we were prac drooling! -double grins-

forget him girl


forget his name, forget his face
forget his sweet words and warm embrace.
forget the love that once was true
remember now there's someone new


forget the way he used to talk
forget how you memorized his walk
forget the fights you two had
remember now he's happy not sad


forget the times he made you cry
forget the times when he was by your side
forget the way he spoke your name
remember now things aren't the same


forget the love that once was shared
forget the fact that he once cared
forget how close you two were
remember now he has chosen her.


forget the days that went so fast
forget them all they're just the past
forget the promises he gave to you
forget him girl, for he has FORGOTTEN YOU!

/ripped fr my darlin evelyn. its soooo true n sooo sad. dont worry people. i will forget him too (:

sometimes i wonder if u even know i exist.

work. study. mug. thts wat i keep telling myself! but it aint working!! i keep slacking and slacking as if i have all the time in the world. the worst ting is i dun feel guilty at all abt it. well well. lots have changed once again over the past few wks. acquired a nemesis. got closer to some. starting to despise some. abandoned a few (with v gd reasons). missed quite a few. realized how much i really miss some that i havent thought about in a damn long time. i especially definitely miss my kc and my sis the most !! of cz not forgetting danny larh :D i tink its funny how opposites attract. i guess ping mich chris chow kc yy will def agree with me tt the guy tht i like/liked is absolutely totally the opposite of guys tht i usually take a liking to. haha and i cldnt agree with em more. well.. i guess now i just wna try to mk him my close fren larh (: cz i tink tht wld be for e best! totally unexpected some wld say. absolutely cannot bring emselves to believe it or me. well.. maybe i like/liked him cz he is like a wild card. a card which i wld previously nv pick. well well. i simply tink he is absolutely adorable. so there. -grins- well back to my darling tvvvvv!! hee


loved the crispy picnic we had..!! more to come yeah! (:

i hate myself for loving you

Midnight gettin' uptight where are you
You said you'd meet me now it's quarter to two
I know i'm hangin' but i'm still wantin' you

Hey jack it's a fact they're talkin' in town
I turn my back and you're messin' around
I'm not really jealous don't like lookin' like a clown

I think of you ev'ry night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but i run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you

Daylight spent the night without you
But i've been dreamin' 'bout the lovin' you do
I won't be as angry 'bout the hell you put me through

Hey man bet you can treat me right
You just don't know what you was missin' last night
I wanna see your face and say forget it just from spite

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but i run back to you, that's why
I hate myself for loving you

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but i run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you

I think of you ev'ry night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but i run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you

im goin to break.


breakaway fr my disgusting atrocious life tht im livin in ata moment. need a fresh start. going to view evtg in a bright new light! gna be super optimistic n ultra disciplined. gna be a much better person. cannot slack! even if i die trying to accomplish all the above! need a role model. actually i tink chris fits tis role v well! he knows how to prioritise.. how to balance his work n play.. he is discplined yet exceedingly retarded ata same time. haha the best part is.. like me.. our world is a stage! all those reading tis now.. pls help me and scold me .. motivate me to be more studious!! i hfta win xiaoyudian in our nerd comp!! n im alr losing like 100-1. ughh! ahha.. i feel sooooooooo deprived of a proper social life ata moment. i need town.. i need to havoc .. i need to gamble.. i need to just let go and go crazyyyy!!! thts just wat i need. i need to hang out with my girls.. so we'll all go mad n bimby tgt!! i need a wild party!! i need kbox so i can sing n scream all i want!! i need a holiday!! to get far away fr all of tis crap! how i wish i was still in tioman.. or sibu.. well at least ill be gg melbourne ata end of e yr! (: (: the only sad ting is tt my stupid kc wont be der.. she will be in hk! how sad is tt. i tot we cld havoc over der with my sis! -sad- oh well...!!! ahhaa.. at least i got chow n all my blk B neighbours (esp lindaaa) to go mad with for now! ahhaa.. ah well. the weirdest tings haf been happening lately.. i tink so far only chris n yuying knw abt it.. its just odd. i mean. i was inta past. but im not now. its weird to go back. i cant! its quite disgusting. i cant even bear to tink of it! its just plain weird. why do pple treat others so fucking _ _ _ _ !!! i cant stand it! ewwwwww! JUST STOP IT!

xiaoyudian ----> cheer up u silly rain drop! ahhaa..i still dun dare to drink the white tea!!! -FAINTS-
chow char ser cheri ------> KBOX N TOWN NOWWWWW!!!
evelyn ---------> dun keep ponnin lessons lor u twit! lets work hard tgt!
everyone ------> does anyone knw where to get a nice leather shoulder bag!!?!?! -pulls hair desperately-

its 2 am.. and i am just staring into the comp and stoning. many thoughts running thru my head but i cant seem to be able to get a hold of each individual thought and analyze or even ponder over it. everything is happening and moving so fast. i feel so outta control of everything i do. my oh so routined life is starting to tk a turn for the worse..!! somebody grab a hold of me and wake me up fr this living nightmare im in..!!! been slacking the whole of last wk aft da econs exams n i cant seem to get back (if i was ever in it) to the studying mode! i got a language of language exam next fri n im sooooooo dead!! even chris is worried.. i shd be panicking!! but somehow i feel so numb. there seems to be this void in my heart that refuses to leave. i haf no idea why it reappeared again. the last time i had it was.. hmm.. a very long time ago.. during the gd ol sn days. there hasnt been any unhappy/tragic/annoying recent event tht cld explain it either! odd. i guess im just going thru a phase in life where u keep reminiscing and dwelling in the past or inta slums of the current. yikes! recently ive been pulled into two peoples lives.. its rather interesting cz me n two other girls have been hafg very very interesting and astonishing talks abt these two pple.. and the best ting is.. we get both sides of the story along with it! nonono we're not bitching.. we're just acting like over-concerned parents who wna mk sure eyr children are fine n taken care of. ahhaa. altho the most we can do is be silent observers (since we're obviously not spse to knw too much abt it or even at all). its amazing wat some pple go thru for love or wat ey tink is love and wat some others dont. i've learnt to view pple thru many angles (bad/gd) and not be so rigid or discriminative of my views on others. its always best to tk a step back and look at life and the pple tt revolve ard urs. once again our observation on these 2 pple haf proven tht love is blind.. it hurts.. and tht there are an infinite number of sides to each episode n each to varying degrees. to the girl onta receiving end of this rather painful episode.. i am extremely proud of how positive u are on ya outlook of life despite the seemingly numerous obstacles or pits cast ur way. you are truly brave and wise and im just thkful u are okay. to the guy.. i hope u knw wat ure losing n i hope ure making the right decision. n i definitely hope u werent just playing with her heart cz then it wld totally err our thoughts/views on ya.. well lets just say noone likes players and noone likes to be played. to the 2 parenteers!! u guys are the funniest larh! ahah. glad we've gotten closer thru our various 'gossip' sessions!! (: guess i shd learn fr her.. be positive and start doin sth abt my slummy crummy life eh? (: